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I
remember an old song, happily revived in a movie some years
ago, that has a line that struck me while I was watching the
film. The line was: "I'll be looking at the moon, but
I'll be seeing you."
Of
course, the song had a beautiful, haunting melody. That, in
itself, was enough to enthrall me, a hopeless romantic, especially
in my younger years. But the line resurrected my curiosity
in probing the difference between looking and seeing.
Both
actions involve our eyes. But I think there's a big difference
between looking and seeing. Looking is the more active and
intentional act. While seeing is the more passive and receptive
act.
Looking
uses the eyes as its door of exit, projecting what is inside
a person's mind and heart. It gives meaning and color to what
one sees. Like the mouth spoken of in the gospel "Out
of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks," the
eyes used in looking practically reveal what's inside us.
Seeing
uses the eyes as its entrance door, apprehending things around
and eliciting instinctive reactions in our inner senses. It
discerns qualities like shape, size, color, position and posture
crucial for us to start to know and relate things.
It's
good that we learn to distinguish between the two so that
we later on would know how to put them together. We may separate
them from time to time, for some reasons, but in the end,
they go together.
As
I understand it, the process looks like we first see things,
then we look at them, then we see them again in a different
light. The first seeing is an entirely sensible act.
When
we start to look, we apply our intelligence to what we see.
That's when we see things differently now.
Again
as I understand it, the process is a continuing cycle that
can either be an upward spiral toward our development and
maturity, or a downward spiral to our regression and perversity.
Thus,
a great sense of responsibility has to infuse our seeing and
looking.
We
just cannot be complacent about this duty, simply allowing
our instincts and emotions to rule over them. Our intelligence,
then our faith, has to guide them. Nothing less than our dignity
is at stake here.
I
remember that in my teen years, someone close to me advised
me to avoid looking at certain things that I might see. He
talked to me about developing a custody of the eyes, which
later on developed into a custody of the heart.
I
understood the advice, and was mightily thankful for it because
it helped me cruise safely those tricky and turbulent adolescent
years. It was not easy, but I managed to survive, thanks be
to God.
To
a large extent, it's skills like this, knowing how to distinguish
and relate looking and seeing, that help us to maintain purity
of eyes and purity of heart, crucial in seeing God, as the
beatitude affirms:
Blessed
are the clean of heart, for they shall see God. (Mt. 5,8).
And again: "Blessed are your eyes, because they see."
(Mt 13,16)
The
proper use of our eyes in the endless cycle of looking and
seeing is indispensable if we want to immerse ourselves ultimately
in God while still in this world.
With
our eyes, we should not just be confined to the physical and
natural world. With our eyes, we can enter the world of faith
and love, of spiritual and supernatural realities. A living
connection is then made between our senses and our soul.
This
is actually what those mature Christian souls, the contemplatives,
enjoy. These people may look like us, and yet they see things
very differently. They can see God in everything.
Even
the ugliest things our biological eyes see can occasion the
presence and mercy of God when seen with the developed eyes
of faith and burning love of God.
We
should try to arrive at this condition of our eyes. When you
have another eye check with your ophthalmologist, try to check
your spiritual vision also.
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Fr.
Roy Cimagala is the Chaplain of Center for Industrial Technology and Enterprise
(CITE) in Talamban, Cebu City. You can email him at:Email: roycimagala@boholchronicle.com |